14,000 is coming up. If you get it, note me with a screenshot, and I'll draw you something. Not much of anything, I know, but it's what I can offer right now... Thanks.

.... v more important.

Donate for hurricane Katrina victims.

I think of a lot of things lately. So much is running around in my mind right now that I don't even know where to start letting everything unfold, and come together so I can better understand. This tragedy that's happened back home makes me realize that things happen you wouldn't even expect. My friend and I were sitting, and it's like.. wow. We've been there before, but we never expected something like that to just happen. We've walked the streets of New Orleans, met some of the people. Louisiana will always be my home, no matter what. Even here in Montana I'm referred to as "Louisiana" or "Southern." Sounds stupid, I know, but that's how it is. People I don't even know come up and ask me if my family's alright. They don't realize how much it hurts to even think about something happening to my family.

No, my family wasn't hurt. My cousin lost her house, but she wasn't there when it happened, luckily. I've said to a few people that my room mate and I were considering going to UNO (University of New Orleans) or something, and we would have been living with my cousin. It's stupid to say what if, but I can't stop thinking about it. It's so weird how things really happened - like the fact that we chose to come all the way out to Montana instead of going just a little down south to New Orleans for college.

I fell in love with the state. The culture and history have me so interested it's amazing. I really can't explain what it is... but it captivated me. For a while, due to family problems, I always said, 'I can't wait to get out of Louisiana because I won't come back.' But now despite the family issues my ex-step-dad was creating, I miss it. It doesn't feel right being here when my friends and family are in a state of turmoil. I know it's better that I'm here instead of there, but it's killing me to be so helpless. I feel like I'm betraying them and that I should've been there.

Don't call me stupid, or laugh, or anything; it's how I feel. I know I probably shouldn't feel this way, but it's not something I can change at the drop of a hat. I sit here crying over it because there's nothing I can do. I'm 1600 miles away from people who need me and could probably use a lot more comfort right now. All of my friends who decided to go to college down there.. I don't know what's going on. I've gotten so many phone calls, people crying.. it hurts. I can only do so much for them over the internet and on the phone. If it sounds silly to you.. whatever. I'd do anything for them. I really would.

... my mind's a blur right now. They need all the help they can get, and if you can in any way please do. There's so many places to go to help, by donating, praying, or whatever it is you can do.

I'd post more links and stuff, but they can be found anywhere if you look. I just had stuff to get off of my mind.

in light of all that's said & done,
the horror comes to life.
in disbelief,
i can only watch ...
as the place i love so dearly
falls deeper in destruction.
Live long, be strong.
Katrina took a lot of things,
but it shouldn't take your hope.

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Donate, if you can. If not, make others aware. This is not a game, this is not a joke. It's life, and is another reason we should all band together to make things better for those in need. Louisiana was not the only place devastated by this, and the others deserve just as much love and support as we can give them. Our hearts are big enough to take them all into consideration, let's not leave anyone behind.



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